Monday 10 September 2012

Imbalance/balance

I know when things are balanced - I train on time, I eat as planned and I experience no cravings. I spend a lot of time in this state. However, it’s not always the case.

How imbalance begins

In a period of balance, work is often where the imbalance begins. I notice that my workouts slip from 12:00pm to 1:00pm. I find myself working past 5:30pm and as the load increases I find myself working on my day job before 9:00am.

As the imbalance grows I’ll miss a workout, then another. I find myself rationalising cravings to myself - “I’ve worked my arse off, I’m going to have a treat”. My weight increases and this in turn leads to psychological imbalances which feed the greater imbalance.

My client work falls further back and further back until the only solutions are to refund the client and terminate the relationship or to knuckle down and power through the work. I normally opt for the later, burning bridges isn’t my thing.

It goes on until my life resembles the absolute chaos in which I used to live pre 2008.

Balanced imbalance is natural

I don’t view imbalance as a “bad” thing. It’s a requirement of balance - sweet & sour, night & day, loud & quiet are all relative to each other and balance is no exception. Chinese philosophy calls this yin yang — yin is darkside of the mountain and yang is the light side of the mountain. They represent the whole as an everchanging cycle in which one turns into the other. At no point is there ever one or the other.

This is what the dots represent in graphic, they are the seeds of each other - without one there cannot be the other.

This is why imbalance is required.